*Edit* Hey guys, no one requested livestreams this weekend so going to be working on my own. I have a few appointments this weekend so it would be hard for me to get a uninterrupted stream anyway ><; Everyone, please read this!
I'm about to spill my guts ; w ;
Hey guys...There's a lot of stuff I've been meaning to get off my chest. I get a lot of daily messages, and I mean A LOT. I usually spend my whole lunch break EVERYDAY responding to them....-_-; And I'm not talking about comments on art (I LOVE THOSE, KEEP EM COMING!), but more so private e-mails, notes, pm's and messages. I never wanted someone to think "Oh crap, she's writing this because of that message I just sent her, she's mad at me!", but so far today I haven't gotten the type of correspondence that I'm talking about. I assure you, if you think it's you, I promise you it's not. I get messages like this all the time.
The type of messages I'm talking about are the personal kind. Trust me, it's not that I don't want to know you, I'm probably the nosiest person in the world, I just don't have enough time to give you currently. I get e-mails, notes, messages, pm's, etc every single day, and this spans over dozens of websites (aside from my own e-mail), and there are a good number of people who somehow think I'm some sort of psychiatrist, please don't take the jitensha=shrink thing literally @_@ I'm not a doctor! But seriously though, I constantly get people telling me that they're depressed, suicidal, had deaths in the family, etc. This is some serious shit, and I'm not going to brush it off and give you a half-assed response, but I am NO ONE to give you advice. I know sometimes you just need one to vent to.
I'm asking in the nicest way possible to please not vent to me
I have so many of my own daily stressors, like being behind on rent, living on a single salary in the most expensive city, work, home-life, panic attacks, depression, did I mention bills?, chronic pain (mostly due to overwork...because well, I'm an idiot), etc, it's hard to be able to focus on yours too. I already feel like I'm drowning in my day-to-day life. And I know I'm sounding awful and horrid, and like the most insensitive, selfish person in the world, but it's really stressing me out. I love that you guys take the time to say "Hey Jit, how's your day?", but it doesn't end like that, no conversation ever does. And that upkeep, keeping everyone's story straight, being thoughtful with my responses, etc is stressing me out and making me anxious. The last thing I need is another panic attack trigger.
At first I started just trying to end conversations subtly.
Person: Jit, how are you?
And I felt horrible. It kills me to not ask 'how are you?' back, but I didn't want to drag on conversations if that meant cutting my own time further. And my husband and I have argued several times about how much time I spend on the computer/phone answering messages...it really does take a chunk out of my day, time that is SO limited for me. I'm not saying not to message me, just please keep more personal messages to a minimum until AFTER commissions are done and I'm not dealing with a million people contacting me about their drawing at once. And if you're someone I've been talking to already for years, don't worry, you can keep messaging me. If you were stressing me out, we would have stopped talking years ago
I also do plead for all of my customers to PLEASE be patient with the queue, I've been getting A LOT of messages. I KNOW it's moving slowly. I have a day job, I have a family, I have a life. From 6AM until 8PM Monday through Friday I'm not home, I'm working, commuting, etc and I'm in bed by 10:30PM. I have a literal 2 1/2 hour window everyday for me (which sometimes I spend an hour of responding to messages if I didn't get them at lunch), which I still have to spend cooking dinner and lunch for the next day, feeding/bathing/taking care of my animals, eating, and prepping for the next day, and barely squeezing in time to spend with my husband. I'm sorry, sometimes during the week I get home and I just do not have the time. I have a VERY hectic schedule, and I'm burning myself out. Just please everyone relax...I've been doing commissions for 10 years and I promise I never took someones money and ran.
YOU SHALL GET YOUR DRAWINGS!
I did mention before my sales opened that it will take time to get through all of these. I open up usually once a year for a reason >_< Between sketch and color vouchers combined I sold several HUNDREDS of them...like a few dozen short of 600. When you figure 1 voucher = 1 character that needs to be addressed (whether drawn or colored), it's a lot of characters. It's A LOT. And DA is not the best place to gauge the wait time. A lot of completed pictures I have are not posted here or anywhere else, due to rules or the customer wanting me to wait for colors. I'm working through them as fast as I can....
So that's it. I just want everyone to give me sometime. I promise I will get to all commissions, finish writing Sheltered, do doodles and other stuff....just please give me some room until commissions are over >< It's a very stressful time ; w ;
I hope you guys aren't angry at me ; w ; It's was really difficult to write this... T.TLivestream Stuff!
The next two weekends I'll be doing livestreams but with a weird schedule ><;
As we're nearing the holidays I'm having a lot of family, work, etc events. I will most likely be setting up weekday livestreams to make up for the lost time.
This Saturday (tomorrow) I'll be ending around 5:30PM because I have a family birthday party to go to, but we'll have the same start time around 11AM. Sunday is looking like a no-go. There is a reporter from the NY Times coming to my home to do a story on my ferrets XD If you guys aren't familiar with NYC laws, they're technically 'banned' but we've been fighting for legalization...I know I'm going to have to spend the whole day cleaning ><;;;
I will also most likely miss 1 day next weekend, but I don't know yet. I'm pushing for Sunday just because I tend to end early that day anyway lol.